i guess i was too open , i guess for that yeah well im sorry , very.
then why do i feel like somethings changed between us
im not gonna be emo or sad because i knew this was gonna happen,why didnt i warn myself about it,i just dont know. i kept holding on to the positives so much i didnt think enough to contemplate this was gonna happen. what am i doing , everytime my phone beeps and i lighten up , hey maybe its you, but its not .
but what else can it be?
i cant keep hoping if i know myself it aint coming true,
but what else can i do?
to give up, its easy but sometimes you just dont want to
i wanna cry , i wanna let go
but i cant . because letting it go would mean setting you free

i guess its really true what they say,
teardrops on my guitar
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okay stupid stupid stupid.
imma back :D
today was IFF. fun (;
walked around during the entire morning with darreeen , then twaye & jo came :D so i walked with them lololll and nou , so then we went to the field and climbed trees :3 ,and sat there playing guitar. shall upload pics laterrrr :p

when im not thinking of you everythings fine, good even .
when i do everything comes spinning around

i guess i just wasn't worth it enough for you.
i said it completely directly, and indirectly,
either you care or you just completely ignored it.
i want you. for me.

♥

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okayyyy i have like two more episodes left till i finish GG season 3 OMYGAWD so like yeahh :) i'm going to watch ONE tonight. grrrrrrrrr its so hard to resist .-. but there's gonna be season 4 in september so yeah. >:D

obtw, call me :)
LOLLWTF

XOXOXO

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I feel like its been a looooootttttt of peoples birthdays lately :P So i just wanted to do a tribute to the birthday-errs :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AINUN SOFIYA;)



what happened to me
what happened to us
what happened to every fucking thing?

i woke up thinking today would be good,maybe better.
then reality set in and i wasnt happy, even if i wanted to be and believe me i want to, very much. i want us to be two people together, smiling and pain-less. but apparently its just a goddamn dream.

i'm sorry ,
pieces of me are broken up now
how can i be whole again?
i need you.
so please.

stop pretending to be someone else
stop being this fucking asshole
i know you can be better, because i know who you were before everything changed you.

i seriously don't want to be emo on a sunday morning. im just not going to be. i think i still remember how to ;)


 cant it just be simpler than this,
watching those cheese-ey picture-perfect love movies and seeing how perfect love can be,how some people have it and some people dont, but how did it get so messed up and broken so hard,how can it hurt so much in real life. it may be simple to you,just a little joke to you but its not to me, so please please
just get it that its not easy for me.

whatever you say i would believe,
but, can you just not be so sensitive sometimes. gosh i said sorry, i said i was just goddamnit joking but it doesnt seem to be making a difference. every sorry i said meant a lot to me, justtt but nothing to you,,

everything i say was true,i do want you very much but i dont know bout you , i thought you did to ,if you think of me as just a sister im not sure about this anymore,but it feels painful knowing that im different when im with you from everyone else sometimes. and i just dont know if i hate or whatt the way you make me feel when im with you

i try not to hurt you, but is hurting me what you really want .

believe me even after all that, all i want is just you.
you and nobody else.
so i wonder, if you wanted me,would you still be doing this to me?
just stop .

i still want you. more than ever.

oh , fuck emo-dom and hello happiness!

tee-hee :) i felt camowhore-ish.  and i also felt like editing pictures.
so yeehhhhhhh
thank you ,for once, thank you mood swings. :)

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A DAY WITH BIANCA'S 450D :D

and yes, it was a nice week :)
i almost had a breakdown but it was nothing, i just thought to much and then i just burst ,, yeh im fine :)

okayyy i was GG-ing again, i only have 4 episodes left till i finish season 3 ): , its just so addictive im doing everything i can to stop from just watching everything right now ):
im supposed to go skating with hershin & fab and the rest/mtv road show with jo today but i cant because im going out later and i have no transport since my parents are busy. :P
btw estella lim, im still alive :3
tee-hee :8


oh & im not texting for the whole month. because i found out my phone bill NOW is 427$. wtf. that 1-sen-per-text thing did not work. obviously -.- So uh yeah if you want anything skype me or call me because I don't really call people :3 tee-hee :8

I HATE CHUCK BASS NOW.
WHAT HAPPENED TO "WE BELONG TOGETHER" WITH BLAIR.
OMFG. IFUCKINGHATEHIMNOW. SUCH AN ASSHOLE. I MIGHT JUST STOP WATCHING GG IF THEY DONT GET BACK TOGETHER. OKAY, I WOULD STILL LOVE HIM IF HE GETS BACK WITH BLAIR. AW THEY WERE SO SWEET. THEY WERE LIKE PERFECT TOGETHER. FUCK HIM. ):<

Did I forget to write a spoiler alert? Oh. Oops. :3

xo
--C

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POST STOLEN FROM AMIRA SASHA :D

TEEHEEE , iloveyou :)

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Chill out, what you yellin' for?
Lay back, it's all been done before
And if, you could only let it be
You will see

I like, you the way you are
When we're drivin' in your car
And you're, talkin' to me one on one
But you become

Somebody else
'Round everyone else
Your watchin' your back
Like you can't relax
You tryin' to be cool
You look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're actin' like you're somebody else
Gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break
And you take what you get, and you turn it into
Honestly, you promised me
I'm never gonna find you fake it
No no no

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i feel unusually emo and feelingless. i know i hate being emo. and i rarely am,i know im a very emotional person but normally i just cry it all out,fall asleep and try my best to face it the next day. somehow it seems different today.

this blog is just too open,and anyone can read it,like yeah. i'm thinking of private-ing it,for a while. i'll think about it. for now my feelings will be on paper. the safest way.

whatever i write,its always hurting somebody. i dont want to anymore. and its like i'm always being judged by what i write and all. just so you know, this is my blog and i can write whatever i want to and post whatever i want to and its none of your business so please stop being such assholes. kthx.

sometimes saying "i love you" is nothing but a plain lie, but a painful one.

i find it very very hard to smile,a real,true smile now, and yeah thats unusual even through the normal sad times. i find it even harder to cry and just let out. but it seems so easy to just give an artificial smile to hide all the pain i'm feeling inside. some people would believe it but i know the ones who really know me would never really believe it.

but yeah,last week was a long week at school,well there were good parts of it but the bad parts though they were short,over-taken the good ones. and wwweeelllllll,i just hope it'll be better this week. i know it will be.

xoxo

oh, and happy birthday simran. i got you red thongs?

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