i feel unusually emo and feelingless. i know i hate being emo. and i rarely am,i know im a very emotional person but normally i just cry it all out,fall asleep and try my best to face it the next day. somehow it seems different today.

this blog is just too open,and anyone can read it,like yeah. i'm thinking of private-ing it,for a while. i'll think about it. for now my feelings will be on paper. the safest way.

whatever i write,its always hurting somebody. i dont want to anymore. and its like i'm always being judged by what i write and all. just so you know, this is my blog and i can write whatever i want to and post whatever i want to and its none of your business so please stop being such assholes. kthx.

sometimes saying "i love you" is nothing but a plain lie, but a painful one.

i find it very very hard to smile,a real,true smile now, and yeah thats unusual even through the normal sad times. i find it even harder to cry and just let out. but it seems so easy to just give an artificial smile to hide all the pain i'm feeling inside. some people would believe it but i know the ones who really know me would never really believe it.

but yeah,last week was a long week at school,well there were good parts of it but the bad parts though they were short,over-taken the good ones. and wwweeelllllll,i just hope it'll be better this week. i know it will be.

xoxo

oh, and happy birthday simran. i got you red thongs?

Labels: emo-dom