why is time passing so fast 

so fast i can barely take a breath

why is everything happening in seconds

i can hardly keep up

can it just slow down for a second?

it's already may. 

yet january feels like yesterday.

can i press the pause button?

just a minute to save myself. 

everything's changing so fast

can i just smile and enjoy how things are right now?

why must the laughter disappear

and turn into tears?

can i just smile and pretend everything's okay?

hoping that after i wake up things will turn out better

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i'm really, really stressed. today at school, well today sucked , it just did . no reasons lah . i miss shu cean so much , ! today was kinda lifeless . and i'm STRESSED! >:O and its not even about studies and all that .
i have :

• battle of the bands . auditions are next week and we haven't even start playing yet . 
• m.u.n. this friday, saturday, and sunday. can i just quit? T.T haihhh.
• english drama. friday. hell , its for assesment and our group is just so incooperative, well except for yan zee , he's the leader. haih . 

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rawwwrrr. it's now 6:59 am and i am SICK. monday blues , this morning i felt horrible when i woke up , even though i slept at 9 yesterday. my throat hurt a lot, and i couldn't cough because it hurt my throat. like seriously. >_< . when i showered, i asked my mom whether if i cant go to school or not. she said 'no, you must go.' than i was like crying coz my head hurt so badly, and my cough was hurting and i couldnt really talk. so later when she ask me to go , i decided ok la , i wanna go . than she was like NO you cant go!. -.-

than she left. i felt sad. coz i actually wanted to go to school?

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fine , thats what you want right .
i just confessed everything to you ,
i told you i couldn't stand your stupid jokes anymore ,
told you i'm a sensitive person and i am srsly mad .
if it was just jokes why did it hurt so much

thank you for apologizing .


but i feel guilty coz YOU felt bad about it .
and now you go offline on me , saying you shouldn't talk to me anymore . 
i should say yes , right ?
i should be happy, right? 


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here to the happy side :) 
i wanna watch gossip girl so badlyyy!
<33 but its 10:30 now. if i start watching i'll never stop.
maybe thats what i need. a good gossip girl marathon.
maybe just 1 episodeee coz i wanna sleep early? :3
haha. lol. i sound so weird xD

- its like my heart wont stop , its going so fast . 
have i really found it ? 
i dont wanna repeat the same mistake . 


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well ,bye.

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well. this week was interesting. i'm trying to blog everyday. i don't want to miss anything this year. ;)
i'm going to graduate at 16. going internationals. i hate that. i seriously just want to enjoy life right now. i dont want to graduate a year earlier! british boyfriends. haha. iwantahottieeee

Simran : I had a dream that me, you, and Shu Cean were at     pavilion and you were talking about Nichii and Shu Cean was eating green cake and ignoring her English BF.  Shush : I had a dream that i pushed Simran off a staircase. Meeeeeee : I had a dream that Shush was a witch and Jesslyn was there pulling Davin in a plastic bag and Shush was laughing evilly and stirring Davin and Carl Vern in a pot full of green stuff. 

haha dreams are powerful. yesss. but sometimes they're just funny haha.

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it has happened so many times. 

maybe it's your attitude, or maybe it's mine, but i just don't want it to be this way between us.

don't you care?

it was just one week of this

and now it has to be like this.
oh god.
please.
stop being like this.

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